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Bushwalking

<I could not keep away long from the land of my birth. I thought of the beauty of England, of the winding roads and hedgerows with its lovely green fields and returned two years later in 2000. We combined a visit to England with a tour of Italy and Ireland, visiting Dublin and the shrine at Knock.
Hazel was enchanted with the green planes, green buses and green letter boxes. She kept looking around in the hope of seeing a leprechaun but it evaded her. It was the day after the feast of St. Patrick, and we were amazed to witness the aftermath of the celebrations.
On the way to our hotel, we sidestepped signs of the previous day’s drinking revelry. Hazel had attended a school run by Irish nuns, and loved their sense of humour. She always associated St. Pat’s day with the colour green—green clothing, leprechauns and shamrocks. Now she threaded her way nauseated by the sour smell of vomit.
When she met the friendly people of Ireland, however, it reminded her of her days in Burma with the missionary nuns.
We had sufficient time for a half-day tour of Dublin and viewed the Book of Knells at Trinity College. After visiting the crystal factory at Waterford and Kilkenny Castle, the bus stopped for the night at Killarney. The following day we passed through Cork and visited the famous Blarney Castle, kissing the Blarney Stone and buying souvenirs from the Woollen Mills.
‘Famine walls’ and ‘famine houses’, relics of the Potato Famine, were dotted all over Ireland.
The coach drove through the Ring of Kerry, which reminded us of the Snowy Mountains in Australia. Then we went on to Limerick, home of Frank McCourt, author of Angela’s Ashes and ‘Tis.
We arrived at Galway Bay in time for lunch.
At Knock, we stopped at the Basilica of Our Lady of Knock. Our only regret was that we could not stay longer.
We returned to Dublin after a week. After two more days at Dublin visiting a Whisky distillery and having dinner at Temple Bar, we flew back to England. From Stansted airport, we caught the train to Nottingham and booked in at the Gresham Hotel where Saturday night brought couples for naughty weekends.

Uncle Clarence, looked slightly thinner, but still held himself tall and straight. He picked us up to meet my youngest cousin, Matthew, born since our last visit.
Using Nottingham as our base, we embarked on the train to Matlock and walked along the Limestone Trail to Abraham’s Heights. Returning via the Derwent Valley Walk on the Derbyshire Downs, we listened to the chatter of chaffinch. Bluetit and blackbirds regaled us.
The next morning we had dinner at the Magna Carta Hotel. Uncle Clarence, who was usually reserved about his past, spoke to Hazel of his work in China during World War II. When war broke out in 1939, he had registered as a conscientious objector and joined the Friends’ Ambulance Unit, a Quaker organisation, and was based in the city of Kunming, in Yunnan province, near the Burmese border. He was still a pacifist and, although over eighty years old, he and his son, Paul, worked as ministers in the Church of Christ.
The epitome of kindness, Clarence was always ready to do good for others. It was a pleasure to meet him each time we returned to England.
With regret, we said goodbye, little knowing he’d pass away in less than a year.

We left Nottingham for Shrewsbury, a typical Tudor town, stopping at the loveliest B & B on the banks of the River Severn. Our host, David Tudor, a retired school principal, treated us to a lavish breakfast in an exquisite setting, replete with silverware.
Taking a train to Great Malvern the following morning, we climbed North Hill through pockets of snow still left from the last snowfall. We had an equally delightful time at Knighton, in Wales, hiking along the Offa’s Dyke Pass.
On the way back, we stopped, mystified by an unusual sound in the woods. To our delight, a woodpecker was hard at work, tapping at a hollow in a tree. Songsters sang for us. Thrilled, we took another walk along a nature trail in the Rea Valley.
Next day we had a glass of the healing waters in the Pump Room at Bath and did a genteel ‘turn’ around the Assembly Rooms. After buying souvenirs at the Jane Austen shop, we returned to London via Bournemouth and the New Forest.
Before commencing the Italian tour, we visited the Barbican and the Hoe where Francis Drake played bowls at Plymouth.
Then we proceeded on to Penzance. At Westbury, to our surprise and delight, the famous White Horse carved into the hills stood out clearly, as the train passed.
The next day we flew from Heathrow to Rome, where we commenced our wonderful week’s tour of Italy. On our return to London, we visited Churchill’s War Cabinet Room, the Grenadier Guards’ Museum and the National War. Finally, we went to the home of Charles Dickens.
I felt a tug at my heartstrings when we boarded the plane for Australia.

Excerpt from A Damn Good Life by Hazel Barker
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October 26, 2013 · 10:53 pm

Hunger

In 1941, when Japanese planes bombed Rangoon, we evacuated to Mandalay in central Burma. Dad drove our maroon Chevrolet packed with trunks and suitcases, leaving behind our home, our servants, all our books and our toys. We were Eurasians, and Dad worked for the British government in the High Court.
Now, four years later, we fled from the bombs that thundered down upon Mandalay and I was uprooted once more. The dilapidated sign with Burmese letters said we were passing the tiny village of Kankauk and would soon be at our uncle’s farm, some ten miles from the city. In the distance, the fierce sun blazed over a dozen wooden huts, huddled together like children in fear.
My brother, Bertie and I sat at the back of the bullock cart with our feet dangling. The wind whirled the dust from the tracks onto our faces. As we trundled along, I turned, anxious about Mum. She gripped the sides of the dray. Her head swayed with each bump. My sister, Rose, was asleep and Herman, my crippled brother, who’d been born with infantile paralysis, grinned at the passing sights.
I detected a disgusting odour and knew he had dirtied his pants. Bertie had to spoon-feed and clean him whenever he soiled himself but my older brother never betrayed any resentment or revulsion.
We branched off from the track parallel to the Rangoon-Mandalay Road and rumbled down a trail dotted with thorny acacia trees on either side. The bushes had thorns as long as my finger – longer than any I’d ever seen. Cattle munched mouthfuls of leaves. I wondered how the barbs didn’t hurt them as they rolled out their tongues and drew the foliage into their jaws.
Dad, who’d cycled ahead, was already there when the cart creaked to a stop. He pointed to a split-level hut not far off.
The walls were of bamboo matting with layers of straw on the roof. The small kitchen and dining room had a bare earthen floor. The bathroom was also on the lower part with a large water pot in a corner and a wooden bathmat in the centre. Two bedrooms with timber floors on a higher level, kept the sleeping area free from damp.
‘Where’s the toilet Mummy?’ I asked, tired after being tossed around by the bumpy trail.
Dad beckoned us outside. ‘See that small structure? You don’t want a pit-toilet close to the house.’
I rushed to the little hut and looked in. A commode had been placed over a pit in which thousands of maggots squirmed. It stank. How I missed the clean white ceramic toilet bowl with the chain for flushing that we’d had in Rangoon. I daren’t complain, as my father had an aggressive nature and angered easily even when not drunk. I’d seen him trash Bertie and strike Mum and I remained incoherent in his presence.
The farm consisted of several acres of flat, arable land. A hay-filled barn attracted flocks of birds that fed on grain missed in the threshing. Tiny minnows darted merrily in a small stream that laughed its way through the property. Further upstream was a Leper Asylum.
‘Keep away from the creek; lepers pollute the water. They swim in it,’ Dad said.

Mum had always relied on our cook to serve up delicious meals. Brought up at a boarding school, she didn’t know even the rudiments of cooking, but later on, she learned how to make broth and fried rice.
Dad’s sister lived with her husband and children in a cottage – a wooden structure with a metal roof and a verandah. On our arrival, we had dinner at their place. The next morning, I picked out the stones from broken rice grains in case they broke our teeth, and Mum made gruel for us.
That afternoon it rained and I ran outdoors with a bucket to hunt for mushrooms. My cousin, Tina, was also collecting the edible fungi. She glared at me. The farm was theirs, but she didn’t tell me to stop, perhaps hoping that her stares were sufficient to frighten me away, so I continued gathering as much as I could.
Mum sliced the mushrooms and fried them with rice for lunch. I swore they tasted like chicken but I hungered for something to read, and yearned to escape into my fantasy world again. I craved for a playmate, but my sister, June, had tragically died last year, and the books we had so enjoyed reading, remained on the shelves in Mandalay. If only I had one book or even a doll to keep me company!
Once, Dad’s uncle gave us a bundle of clothes abandoned by refugees attempting the trek to India. They were tailored, suitable for a teenage girl. I imagined how lovely June would have looked in them. I’d outgrown most of my own frocks, but the dresses were too large for me as I was only nine.
Fortunately, Mum had attended sewing classes at school. She picked out a white dress with blue spots and showed me how to alter it. The flared skirt and puffed sleeves hid my skinny body.
Bertie had long outgrown his shorts and now wore native clothes – loongyis.
The days trailed past. We ate wild bananas with round, black slippery seeds.
Mum tried to set us a good example by attempting to eat the fruit but she gagged when she endeavoured to swallow them.

At the time, we had a stray chocolate-coloured pup with white socks and brown, mournful eyes. We named him Rover. He remained with us, even though we were unable to feed him. It was a delight to have a pet once more, and I loved stroking his soft fur. Rover had to fend for himself but he joined us in all our adventures whenever he wasn’t away scavenging.
One day, Bertie took me fishing and, to our delight, he caught a fish no bigger than his thumb. He held it between two skewers of bamboo and grilled it over the fire.
Rover drooled and begged for a bite, but there wasn’t enough even for us. We sat by the stream and ate the manna from heaven. I couldn’t recall anything so tasty.
When Dad had shot a deer at Kalaw, Nanny’s dried venison was yummy too, but eating toasted fish with Bertie on the banks of a stream with the wind singing through the trees and the clean whiff of hay drifting towards us was terrific.
A few days later, Bertie remembered that the fish drank the same water the lepers bathed in further upstream.
‘If ever you spill boiling liquid on yourself or burn your fingers while lighting the fire and don’t feel any pain, let me know,’ he said. ‘It’s a sure sign of leprosy.’
For months after, too afraid to tell anyone what we’d done, we checked our hands daily, in case the disease ate off the tips of our fingers.

We became so desperate for food that Dad sold Mum’s beautiful silver fox fur wrap and the jewellery she’d inherited from her mother. People knew we were desperately short of money and offered rock bottom prices for them. I thought of my beloved books – of Gone with the Wind and the carpetbaggers who overcharged customers after the war.
A sense of fatalism engulfed Mum. Heartbroken at the loss of her valuables, she said, ‘I’ve cherished my heirlooms over the years, and never guessed they’d be disposed of piece by piece like this.’
Each item of Mum’s treasures staved off starvation at irregular intervals, buying just enough food to keep us alive.
When Dad sold Mum’s wedding ring to his relatives, they must have realised we were starving, and had no more to sell. One day, Dad’s uncle visited us. Before he left, he stepped up to my father and slipped a few dollars into his shirt pocket. My cheeks burned because we’d been reduced to such straits but tears came to my eyes when I thought of the food we could buy.
That evening, Dad gave the money to Bertie and sent him to the grog shop to purchase bottles of spirit. In spite of having so little money for essentials, Dad insisted on having his daily nightcap – a glass of the native brew. Bertie had to go out every week and buy a bottle of liquer. What a waste when we were dying from lack of nourishment!
Mum wrung her hands. ‘This frequent contact with alcohol may make Bertie an alcoholic when he grows up.’
I gnawed my nails. What if Bertie became a drunkard? I visualised him staggering home, stinking of booze with his shirt hanging outside his trousers like a tramp. Then he too would beat us up for no apparent reason, as Dad so often did.
Fortunately, the experience had an opposite effect on my brother as he turned out to be a teetotaller.
Dad escaped from any form of sickness, and his health appeared to be unaffected, whereas the rest of us were ravaged by illness. Little did I know that the war would have lasting effects, and start him on the road to alcoholism.
Mum had twinges in the soles of her feet. She tried to conceal her sufferings but as the pain grew worse, she curled up in agony. Aunty suggested putting a block of camphor in cooking oil and placing it in the sun until it melted.
I massaged Mum’s feet with the mixture, but my efforts only gave her temporary relief.
When Rose fell asleep in the afternoons, Mum lay down to rest. ‘Play with my hair, Hazel. The gentle touch of your hand will lull me to sleep.’
She placed a fan made of palm leaves over her eyes to protect them from the sun’s bright reflection, and dozed off.
On hot summer days, when prickly heat erupted on her back, she asked me to pierce the little bubbles. Then she fell into a deep slumber, her arms twitching.
I lay beside her and slept from sheer exhaustion. Hunger made me tired, and sores developed on my elbows, forming ugly scabs. My eyes did strange things. When I picked out little stones and dirt from the rice before cooking, the grains appeared to meld into each other.
Mum let out a sob and hugged me to her when I mentioned it. The sour odour of perspiration descended upon me. My ribs stuck out like a washboard and they hurt even from her gentle pressure, so I struggled to extricate myself from her bony embrace.
I didn’t know then, but I was suffering from malnutrition and slow starvation.
The days lingered on, and by the final spasm of the war, Mum had lost her voice and only spoke in a feeble tone.
All sense of the flight of time vanished, and I dreamed of the past, losing all sense of the present. The moment my head touched the pillow, my mind dredged up memories of Rangoon. Falling into a broken sleep at nights, I frequently awoke to the sound of stray dogs howling. I shivered in dread and reached out for June, but soon realised she no longer lay beside me.
The future seemed as empty as the long, lonely night.
As we grew skinnier and weaker, we developed beriberi, a nerve disease caused by a lack of Vitamin B. Our feet swelled to twice their normal size and remained swollen until Dad’s cousin gave us some valuable advice. ‘You’ll die if you continue eating white rice. You should buy wholemeal flour and make chapattis. Brown rice and whole meal flour are rich in vitamin B. They’ll fix your problem.’
We’d always eaten polished rice because, in my parents’ view, only common villagers ate unpolished rice, but we switched to brown rice and soon liked the nutty flavour.
Dad bought unbleached flour and cooked chapattis. We watched him as he kneaded the dough, pressed it flat with a rolling pin and swirled the round chapattis in his frying pan. They were scrumptious, but best of all, the swelling in our feet began to shrink.
Once a week, Dad purchased an ox-tail from the butcher and made stew. I always had the smallest bones at the end of the tail and I bit off as much of the soft bone as I could until nothing remained.
As the spectre of starvation edged closer, insatiable hunger gnawed at our stomachs and hunger-pangs kept us awake at nights. We dreamed of meat, and during the day spoke of it with reverence.
Once when Dad was out for his daily walk, we heard a knock at the door. One of Dad’s cousins carried in a bag of sweet potatoes. Without a word, he made his way into the kitchen and placed it on our little table of stacked boxes. We thanked him, but he barely looked at us and left.
Bertie eyed the plump, pink potatoes. ‘Let’s take one each from the bag and try eating them raw. Daddy won’t notice. I dare not cook them in case he comes back before they’re ready.’
I readily agreed but screwed up my face at the taste. Within a short time, our stomachs swelled. We remained weak and hungry. I thought of our life at Rangoon and yearned for those days.
I replayed a film from the storehouse of my memories. I dreamed of devouring chocolate éclairs from the Continental Cafe, and craved for food. The memory only served to make me hungrier.
We grew thinner and thinner. Only Rover appeared to thrive. Like most animals, his nose led him to food. He skulked around butchers’ shops and snatched a bone that Buddhists threw to the dogs. Chased by other mongrels, Rover raced home and chewed on his prize in the shade beneath the hut.
I’d seen Cook make delicious broth from what Rover now gnawed upon and my mind conjured up the aroma of soup simmering on the stove. I imagined sucking the marrow and savouring its flavour as it oozed into my mouth. I licked my lips.
Resourceful Bertie trained Rover to hand over his spoils. The dog waited patiently, flogging the ground with his tail while my brother cracked open the long bone and scraped out the contents. Then he returned it to Rover, gave some of the substance to me, and ate the rest.
From then on, until Britain regained Mandalay the following year, Rover brought us a something whenever he could.
As soon as the fighting in the city ceased, we moved back to Mandalay. Rover accompanied us. We went straight to the house Mum had inherited from her parents. The infamous Kempetai had occupied the place and left in a hurry, leaving behind a grand piano in the sitting room. It grinned at us like a skull I’d seen at a museum.
Mum’s fingers strayed to the keys. ‘This can partly compensate for the one we lost at Rangoon during the evacuation,’ she said.
My thoughts flew back to Mum’s piano and all my dolls and toys, but too excited to dwell on the past, I rushed towards the other rooms. In the bedroom, Bertie gazed at the dead body of a Japanese officer. I stopped and stared at the corpse.
Mum pulled me back and hung on to me until Bertie had dragged the cadaver by its legs and left it in the gardens of Queen Alexandria’s Children’s Hospital, which stood behind our house.
He kept the skull as a souvenir. The cranium displayed a fine set of teeth and gave me a toothy grin. It had a terrible stink, so I stayed away until no odour remained. The skull fascinated me, however, and I often returned to gaze at it and wonder where the departed soul now lived.
The Japanese had used the building behind ours as a military hospital, and in the months of fighting around Mandalay, it had filled with casualties. Orderlies had laid their dead in rows, and hundreds of corpses lay awaiting cremation. In the hospital grounds too, cadavers piled up.
Rover strayed from home and delved among the bodies. Dogs snarled and fought each other over the fly blown-corpses, and Rover raced back, carrying parts of the dead.
He dropped the foul-smelling tribute at our feet and wagged his tail. We couldn’t tolerate the horrible stench and chased him off.
Rover slunk into the shadows and never returned. Perhaps soldiers shot him during the clean-up of Mandalay or he fell ill from consuming rotting human flesh.
We remained inconsolable over the loss of Rover, our companion in distress, until Dad received a letter from the High Court at Rangoon, advising him to report for duty. The government offered him a senior position and enclosed a cheque, but as accommodation was scarce in post-war Rangoon, they requested him not to take us with him.
Before his departure for Rangoon, Dad authorised Bertie to collect his rations from the army canteen. He brought home tins of bully beef and sausages as well as tickets to the Garrison Theatre.
Wide grins spread over our faces and our eyes sparkled when he left. Mum sprinkled a few drops of the eau de cologne on her handkerchief. She had hoarded a bottle during the war. The perfume lingered on in some subterranean cavern of my senses and I always associated the fragrance with her.
A mantle of peace descended.
The bombing had destroyed most of Mandalay, and in places, only the facades of buildings remained, so the theatre was nothing more than a Nissan hut. Bertie found me a seat close to the front and I clasped my trembling hands to my chest when the curtains were drawn.
A soldier sang, You are my Sunshine. I forgot my surroundings. My pulse raced and thrills of excitement rippled down my spine.
We were free. Free of the Japanese, free of Dad and free of hunger.

(Excerpt from my Memoir ‘See No Evil: story of a warchild’)

Published: 2013 Redlitzer Anthology
Publisher: Redland City Council

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